chronikon current communication whole system level before next level

2005-01-02 11:55 a.m. new years labour delicate symmetry blacklit odyssey of remembering the intensity of unachievable fairytales the bass pump overdrive surreal encounters of the past overlaid inordinate surface texture of eyes and inquiries time makes a mockery of memory reorganising neural pathways inventively shuffling intutive connections assembling the past from an emotional perspective regardless of planning and logik the memories look like van gogh canvas surface details belying an evolved eye impressions of ecstatic encounters with light balancing love on top of life its mystery unsolvable paradox incarnate alive in the swirling skin of intaken information living interpretation of events contextualizing itself by comparing everything to the myth of its own importance thats what i have become tho i struggle i my own way to leave the language itself behind its trap of ends unnattainable and impossible its reaction to beauty derived from oceans of magazine skin blondhairblueyed 2d image symbols and pictures of technology i cannot posess but i am learning as i can the feelings overwhelming response to air skyblue immaculate clarity textured with nothing but breath and awareness for too long caught as i have been in words undefinable entities given names and descriptions caught as i have been in a sense of self i wish to expand beyond beyond to understand the infinite presence to be at peace with the death that inevitably swallows all life to be molded again in the divine image buried under heaps of illusions yes this is the self reborn wailing severance of one's own umbillicus eating the placenta of reality unflinching and free