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2003-06-03 3:03 a.m.
stepping into the light
disappointing i'd say, in the end, to have things exit on such a note is an insult at least, at best an ambivalent approach to denial of responsibility and whatever. whatever.whatever. there's not even feelings anymore, for no being is powerful enough to crush spirit, no matter how big the understanding.

love is when your close friend comes to hang out with you for a few days in the summer and you know that you can be as close as you want without having any issues. love is knowing that your roommates will be there for you and will always line up an episode before dinner. love is the heartfelt commentary given by those who matter most on projects that reflect the true heart and the the deep essence of living life as a creator.

being blind and ignorant is never asking about the things that matter. being lame is lying to yourself and others. being stubborn is maintaining silence out of some grudge or self righteous indignation. lame is when the last messages you leave for someone are angry and spiteful.

love is when you, repeatedly agree with youiself that no matter how difficult someone might be, that you make the point of caring enough to still see them as beautiful, no matter how ugly they want to convince themselves you are.

a door opens for a moment, and you know youve seen the light. you know that your world expands beyond its tiny little confines of the rgular old shit, but maybe thats not this lifetime for you. maybe this lifetime will be spent watching the screens and wondering if you'll ever have the guts to fly.

not me tho. this is the end of the beginning. thanks for the lessons. im ready to leap.