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2003-05-11 5:47 p.m.
evolving vividness of life
its not so much that i miss you but more that i feel something missing. every interaction is supposed to evolve the dream. no one escapes unchanged. in every claim made i see the truth of the forecast. out of stubborness there is clinging to the judgements.

"it is here that i lay down the weapons i use to fight off fate" christopher james 1993

all assumptions made dissolve in the truth of the moment. a long scrolling list still states the attributes and inspirations.

"freedom is a road seldom travelled by the multitude"

love in all splendoured forms is not as unrealistic as you might think. releasing the need to see the reflection allows the size and scope to increase. all selves are another yourself. let go of them and you gain the perspective back.

pain gone now. not so long in coming truthfully, for it was an older wound than you, or the one before, or the one before. it was a self inflicted wound of fear and denial. seeing it heal has been nothing less than miracle.

i'll thank you over and over, even if you dont care. i do.