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2003-04-28 6:01 p.m.
setting free the sails
and everyone understands. all see the path before them not so unfortunately laid out and maybe lessons are learned in the walking of it. of all the nights i went home and fell asleep confused at why the universe taunted me with challenges, the voices that asked me for things i could not give or felt strange about. yes all of you who found in me something inspiring or gratifying or evolutionary i meant only to reflect you in the intensity of who i felt you were. my fragile heart, always being assumed to be mighty and impermeable, is as full of ache at times and weary of the lonliness of climbing thru the lessons again and again. to hear of anothers joy at moving out of the empty and into the full is wondrous news, no matter what had to be endured to survive (read cosmic serpent chicchan 13).

if the union of self and another is the dream, then the fullfillment comes when the other walks in the door and presents the presence of perfection. is this a dream, or is the dream dreaming us?

being open to the frequency is key in the tmes when the opportunity arises. i do not regret the times i knew i should jump thru other windows instead of opening doors that lead to places i might not want to go.

if this is too abstract then imagine how it feels to be on the outside looking in and seeing the effect, seeing the way those free souls wake up to their immensity and move into the meta. i smile here in this room. not crazy i dont think, not so lonely as this path will lead me inevitably into the arms of something so much greater than you or me or anyone.

and if you dont care or read this anymore then maybe it wont be read, but i was always ready to state the truth of the inside of me. this innocent heart seeking the magic of connecting with other entities on their magical journeys wants nothing more than to see you blissful and realistic about the sustainability of the dynamik..when the sun sets and it is only you and yourself to interpret the meaning, you know the joy and pain of being forever free.